Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Ummm, I think I need a life kit?

I've made up my mind to do this spiritual journey with God so now what?! How do I make this journey a reality?! How do I just change my life?! I mean I've been doing Lauren for years and thats suppose to change in a day. How do I know what changes I realllllly need to make?! Someone needs to provide me with a life kit or something!

The idea of a new lifestyle can be a little bit overwhelming. Especially if ones' idea of a "Christian lifestyle" is this boring, basic, very routine, no fun, stickler lifestyle! I must admit, I've struggled with the fear of becoming a "holier than thou religious crusader" who couldn't enjoy life too. But once my imagination snaps back to reality, I realize that my new lifestyle would require balance just like any other aspect of life. Tipping the extremities of either end (overly spiritual or under spiritual) is not a good thing.

If one is so spiritually wrapped up that they don't have friends who arent spiritual, then how are they suppose to minister to those nonexistent friends? But at the same time one can't do all the same things a friend who isn't fully spiritual does.

You are the light of the world—like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden. No one lights a lamp and then puts it under a basket. Instead, a lamp is placed on a stand, where it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your good deeds shine out for all to see, so that everyone will praise your heavenly Father." (Matthew 5:14-16 NLT)

Some ways I've been trying to find that balance in my life are:

'Some of Lauren's life kit essentials'

•the bible app
(With the bible always accessible on my phone, I can use it whenever I need to)
• daily devotionals
(The first thing I do in the morning is read my bible verse of the day, followed by my two daily devotional book readings and ending with verse translation and further reading in my personal study bible. I do this all BEFORE I read or respond to anything on my phone. This defiantly took some training. But if by some mishap I DON'T get my daily devotion in, my day is a wreck. So before I see that potentially upsetting text or depressing post of Instagram, I make sure my day starts with something positive because I have control over that)
•praying constantly throughout the day
(This was hard especially when naturally I first wanted to complain, but a cute and fun way I found to pray during any and all circumstances was to take the well known "Jesus be a fence" saying and change it to fit my situation. Ex. If I was having a hard time with a customer at work, I would say "Jesus be some patience" often times it would sound so silly that I would laugh to myself and all of sudden that customer didn't bother me as much! (: )
"Never stop praying." (1 Thessalonians 5:17 NLT)
•attending a church I absolutely love
(This is soooooo important for your growth. Your weekly attendance to church will strengthen and encourage you in ways you didn't even think you needed! I just love when I've been praying about something all week and show up and the service seems to be tailored for me! Its also important that the love church members show is apparent, you need to feel that and it makes it easier for the fellowship that God wants us to do.)
•making and spending daily quiet time with God
(This determines how well I actually know God? I mean reallllllly know him. To the point where he spoke to my spirit and told me specific details like dates & times about events in my life?! What peace would I have if God was personal daily planner? He can be and I don't know about you but to achieve and maintain that level of intimacy with God excites me so. Also as you continue to grow close to him and can discern the Holy Spirit, all the answers to the posed questions in the first paragraph will be revealed to you! You'll feel a certain way when engaging in daily activities your spirit doesn't agree with)

You will encounter many tests, obstacles, and days where you just want to give up. Even worst, you actually give up. None of this should stop you, get back up and continue on your journey! In the end, Our reward is great!

"Be happy about it! Be very glad! For a great reward awaits you in heaven...." (Matthew 5:12 NLT)

Btw....Since I'm such a music lover, every blog will have some song or lyric that accompanies it!

Todays song of choice is "Everyday Thing" by Andy Mineo

(The first verse is below!)

My name's Johnny
This ain't a Sunday thing, a once in a while thing
Maybe if my emotions get high enough thing, it's
Everyday Thing

God don't owe me anything, I owe Him everything
They try to put Him in a box like a wedding ring
He came out, oh dear, no venison
Our sin is disease, Jesus is still the medicine
That's why these bars hard to explain,
So I calculate my rhymes, sorta like a chess game
I'm tryna balance all my art and theology
So when it comes out of me, I represent properly
Three persons, one God, no apostrophe S's
Progressing with caution, slow talkin'
Quick to listen, with sick precision Jesus fix my vision
Man I don't care if you Christian, you're wack with what you're spittin'
I ain't writin' you no mediocre pass, pimpin'
This is art, it don't have a religion, they try to pigeon-hole me
Say I'm too holy to show face
I don't come around 'cause y'all just wanna see my old ways
I'm on a new path, I'm chuckin' up the peace sign
They throw it back without the index, what could I expect
Hate my master, then they gon' hate me too
Wish death upon me, well I'm just prayin' for you

We walk it out, we gettin' it,
Ain't no days off, man we livin' it
Everyday thing, every-everyday thing
Yo it's an Everyday thing, every-everyday thing



Until next time...love,

Lauren (:


Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Face-off: Spiritual Lauren vs. Worldly Lauren

Have you ever felt like you were suppose to do something but just didn't know how you were suppose to do it? Like you just didn't know where to start? or Maybe you felt you didn't have the strength or courage to face the criticism that comes along with your decision? This is exactly where I am I right now. The thing I struggle with is fully committing myself to God.

I mean I love him and yes, I do know him; I go to church (most Sunday's), I tithe (for the most part), and hey I'm even nice to people  (as long as they stay in their lane). I mean yea ok, so I spent a couple of nights with that guy and didn't actually sleep the whole night (but I'm human and God, you made me so you know how it is, and it only happened a few times----every other month or so, but I ask for forgiveness because the flesh is just so weak. Look bottom line here, I love God! Right?! righttttttt.....

But that voice whispers back to me....."then why don't you live like it Lauren?!" Caught dead in my sorry excuses...truth is I'm not living the way I KNOW I need to be living: a life that reflects him.

"I tell you the truth, anyone who believes in me will do the same works I have done, and even greater works, because I am going to be with the Father" John 14: 12 (NLV)

If I was to meet a non-believer on the street and they knew all about my life, they might call me a hypocrite when I told them I was a Christian. I can imagine them thinking something along the lines of "so she's a Christian right? only difference is she goes to church and says she loves this guy called Jesus, supposedly some savior or something. BUT, she lives just like me. That church and savior mess doesn't make her any better than me. In fact she's worst....at least I'm real about mine!"

"Do not love this world nor the things it offers you, for you do not have the love of the Father in you. For the world offers only a craving for physical pleasure, a craving for everything we see, and pride in our achievements and possessions. These are not from the father, but are from this world." 1 John 2:15-17 (NLV)

 I ask myself how God must feel about my "one-foot-in, one-foot-out" lifestyle I have about being for him? I know he's not happy yet he continues to show me mercy and give me grace. But before my time runs out I want to get it right! I've been battling my "two-facedness" for some time. I talk about getting it together, I even get it together for awhile, but somehow, someway I slip back into my "comfort" of the world.

"There is a path before each person that seems right, but it ends in death."  Proverbs 16:25 (NLV),
"There is a path before each person that seems right, but it ends in death" Proverbs 14:12 (NLV),
{when a verse is in the bible multiple times it means something....pay attention!}

 "And what was the result? You are now ashamed of the things you used to do, things that end in eternal doom." Romans 6:21 (NLV)

And lets be honest I'm a single, 23 year old female living in a large city. The temptation is there, not to mention how would I look not doing the worldly things (clubbing, partying, drinking, having sex). The world tells me I would be weird, that there has to be something wrong with me because "she's different" but not a good different.

But the bottom line is since I am a believer and know Jesus died for me and YOU, I don't answer to the pressures and people of this world...so why don't I start living that everyday? I decided that I am.
That's what my blog is about. I am by no means perfect or completely developed in Christ (I don't think we are ever done growing closer to God) but it was placed on my heart to share my journey for people who are looking to also fully dedicate themselves to God with their lifestyles. This blog is to provide strength and courage to the others who embark down this road (you aren't alone). I want to share my challenges and my successes along this journey to help others.
Please follow, comment, pass-on, ask questions (we can figure somethings out together), email me (justfalauren@gmail.com) because I hope and want to be transparent as possible -together we are the body of Christ.

"I need you, you need me. We're all apart of God's body. Stand with me, agree with me, we're all apart of God's body. It is his will that every need be supplied. You're important to me, I need you to survive!" - I Need You To Survive by Hezekiah Walker and the Love Fellowship Choir

"A spiritual gift is given to each of us so we can help each other." 1 Corinthians 12: 7 (NLV)

So join me on this journey as I "face-off" with the spiritual Lauren I am continually growing to be and the worldly Lauren I am leaving behind.

With Love,
Lauren